MEGA SHOPPING MOOD.

Today met pei and ming and ray and we went to Tamp 1 to service my lollipop phone. Actually I just want to do software upgrade, the person, after letting us wait like 20 mins tell us that there is no more newer version than "A". But online, there is version "D" alr!

Anyways, cant be bothered alr then we decided to go shoppingggg instead. HAHAHAH buy clothes, cream, clothes again. Serously my wardrobe is kinda full but oh well, shopping makes me feel happier.

Life is so............................. blant. I dunno, serously I think im kinda confused in what I truly want in life. Some ppl want a family. Some ppl want a car. Some ppl want a mansion. Some just truly wanna be where they are. Like me.

I dunno, I dun have high expectations as well. As long as I am not hungry, happy, with my parents, can do small shopping sprees at times, tats enuff for me. Or maybe because of that, thats why I find my life kinda boring... No new aims like, hey I want that bag, I want that shoe etc, that kinda of motivation to push me forward and get what I want, and when I do, most ppl are greatly happy then they find the next aim.

Should I have so many aims like that? Probably not. Maybe I will be bankrupt then. So then what do I want in life? To get a gd job n earn alot of money??? AND THEN??? BUY ALOT OF THINGS???? AND THEN????????????????

It makes me ponder why do we need to study so much just to get a gd job and just to earn money. Till then we will be tied to 9 to 5 job and really just working for our life.
And if u have kids, you cannot DUN work.You gotta feed them and stuff, till then when does WAD YOU WANT come into the picture? not anymore. Its about kids alr.

IF you have gd kids, awesome. If you have naughty ones, god bless you.
AND THEN maybe you will be kiasu and want the BEST for your kid. Thats when all the tutoring, more hw, get into gd school come in AGAIN. So when you have kid and he/she does well, you might BOAST to your relatives as most of them COMPARE.

Seriously, why make life so hard? Comparing and make urself miserable. BUT ppl do that, even sometimes I cant help but do that too, after all I am still human. And at times like tat, I hate myself too.

After your kids grow up under pressure of comparing and perhaps peer pressure, they mature and grow up. Then you worry if they get married or not. zzz. Sometimes I hate chinese new yr as tats the time everyone get together and ask," What you doing now? Schooling? Got bf?".
It is IRRITATING. I used to just answer, but now I QUESTION THEM BACK to let them know how it REALLY FEELS.

GET A GRIP MAN.

Maybe I still need to find, my piece of land under the sky.