JULY ALREADY.

Great. 2 months since I last blogged. Not much things has happen, or perhaps exciting enuff for me to blogged down.

Work. Shop. Work. Shop. Yeah, life roughly like that.

detachment.

How to have a balanced lifestyle? I asked myself. Yeah. Family, school, work, frens, love all gotta come into the pic. But what if, some part has more percentage than others? How to define balanced after all. How much is enough to be balanced too?

heart.

Do you know how to stop your heart from beating or simply.. feeling? perhaps I can.
Sometimes I wonder, how come tears could fall yet you cant feel your heart beating?
It amazed me truly.

I dunno if I wanted too much. or there simply wasnt enough. I am quite sick of it really.

Going round n round. back here and there. round up down again.

I could. put it aside. I could dun care abt it.
I could. dont dare me, cause I could.

I might. simply forget everything and move on.
I might. want to erase everything and everything at all.
dont dare me, cos i might.

slowly. its eating me up.
slowly, its disappearing.
slowly, its vanishing.
slowly, its alr gone.

i dunno what i want anymore. i dunno if its okie to even want.

keep your love lockdown, your love lockdown.
im not loving you the way i wanted to.
see i wanna move, cant escape from you,
so i keep it low, keep the secret cold, so that no one have to know.
i cant keep myself and keep you too.

Love lockdown. Kanye West.